BDSM Healer, Part 2
Part 1 can be found here
One important thing that needed attention during my massage was an old knee injury from high school. It happened during a time in my life when I was not taking care of myself and did not give it all the care it deserved. I told him I get nervous when the muscle is loosened, and he verbally confirmed that he understood. Unlike my last masseuse, however, he did not then shy away from the area. He got all up in the surrounding tissue, and it was quite tender! It hurt in a way that felt necessary. Pain for the better.
Not only did I feel it in the tender area where he was touching, but I also experienced an emotional release. The body stores traumatic energy when it is not properly worked out in the moment. I began to cry on the table, not from physical pain but from some deep past trauma that had lodged itself in my stiff muscles. I had repressed and ignored the issue for years. Giving it attention, working through the problem, released some blockage that I did not know I was holding. I had to uncover and face it to move forward and heal.
It was not one moment that defined the session, however. Layers of touch as he moved over my body, working each area in different ways, intensified to an overall sensation of both fulfillment and wanting more. If I were to receive such a comment, I would consider it a great review! Beginning a new BDSM relationship can be intimidating, but need be no more daunting than seeing a new therapist or yoga instructor.