BDSM Healer, Part 1

Seeing a Dominatrix parallels the experience of seeing any physical or emotional healer. When I recently got a massage with a new masseuse, I experienced what I imagine BDSM clients must sometimes feel. I had to trust that he knew what he was doing and had my best interests at heart. I felt incredibly vulnerable, and honestly, I was pretty nervous. 

Before we began, he asked about injuries and areas that need attention. I mentioned some knots that didn’t feel good, and knew there had to be more important things. Nothing came to mind. As the session progressed, I remembered the other things on which I drew an inexplicable blank moments before. I often see this happening from the other side, as a submissive gets comfortable and reveals more to me. The nerves of a new encounter can make it hard to remember details of our needs and desires.

As we continued, I let myself melt a bit under his touch. I wanted to pour out all my little issues for the working, get his hands everywhere to fix everything. Instead of demanding instant gratification everywhere, which might have diminished the quality of each body parts’ treatment, I allowed him to go deep in one or two areas. I again had to trust that if I come back and allowed our relationship to develop, he would learn my body and get to all the good stuff soon.


Come back next week for part two!

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